Jealousy--1st time

Aiks...it is too bad because I was having my 1st experience of feeling JEALOUS>.<

Stupid me just because of my dear played badminton with a girl....Aikz.....may be I felt that so inferior and embarrasing when that girl invited me go play at 1st yet I rejected her due to my disability in playing badminton.If not I sure will accept this challenge instead of sitting down there and torturing myself >.<

Therefore, I am not dare to tell my dear on the spot and made him feel so guilty and he kept guessing around what had happened actually .Just want to say SORRY to him since he was so patient in convincing me while I was keep quiet all the time.

Indeed , I really do admire his spirit!!!Hope that he can keep it up in order to eradicate his impatience personality even it is very hard and unfair for him but I need to do so for our future:)

Sorry but hope you can understand me,DEAR~~~