An Exhausted and Hectic day without Resting(3/10/09)

Three round activities will be carried out consecutively the whole day~~finally i am so tired until i can fall asleep when sat on ZILIANG 's house sofa.Not only tired physically but also mentally~~extremely exhausted today!!SORRY my dear ,didnt accompany you at ZILIANG 's house.
1st round of engaging in the school until 12am plus plus~~2nd round of going to account tuition until 5pm~~OH MY GOD!!!how i can hold on until 10pm tonight for the 3rd round of tuition~~Wuuuuuu...:(HAIZ,my health was collapsed ultimately~~how i wish i have a whole day of sleeping now~~but tomorrow i still need go to be a volunteer!!!!
Anyway,I had experienced something new,HAHA!!!actually nothing special,just sitting RYAN's Honda car but never felt exciting or panic~~because my dear drove his car to fetch me go ZILIANG 's house 1st,then RYAN just drove me go to tuition together!!HIHI~~during the journey going back ZILIANG's house,we had met the traffic police.so nervous o.o Actually I felt nothing because I slept in the car but heard RYAN keep saying :"中了!中了!this time真的中了!"I felt curious about these words then awake and saw what had happened actually???i saw 2 traffic police in front of us already..OMG!I didnt wear the safety belt somemore he broke the rule by cutting the double line in front of the police.Fortunately,the police keep looking at RYAN only,so i seized the chance to wear the safety belt,RYAN just stunned there and aghast at them.We pretend like nothing and just pass by them!!!huuu.....:P nothing happen.YEAH!!!so lucky!!!sincerely thanks for RYAN's lifting~~and sorry my DEAR ~~always show you a sollow face ,I will try to smile more nest time~~~:)

Am I too stupid or too selfish~~????This time I am in the cleft stick ~~But i will insist on being loyal and faithful to my DEAR,I just want to tell my dear that i sure can overcome the delusion~~please give me some time,i wont give up while you cant give up me too.....I still need you at this crucially important moment...I am elapse and lost now but I will feel excruciating and despair when you are really leave me alone:(What can I do for you now?????I don't know how to face you next time????can just let it be nature???I know that is cant because your hurt wont be cured so easy and I just hope that I can heal your wound in your heart~~I felt your purest of pain these days.........i am not dare to ask for your forgiveness and not dare to ask you to wait for me again....because I know you are tired already.SORRY even this word didn't bring any meaning to you again,but I need to say to you again and again....No matter how is the condition finally,I want to tell you that I still need you to be with me and walk along with me...my DEAR,CAN YOU????:(

A hopeless day...:(

I dont like my hopeful day become a hopeless day. I am a pessimistic girl because I always feel despair in my hopeful day~~But i always cherish the hope in my hopeless day even the hope is less.I must become more tough and strong to overcome my hopeless day :)
I will always anticipate my hopeful day in order to reserve my little hope for hopeless day.Just from my deepest of my heart,A Hopeful Day remains a hopeful day for me while A Hopeless Day remains a hopeless day which will always leave me many lingering memories..>:(
The best moment is during my hopeless day is going to be my hopeful day!!!!!!!

HOPELESS =:( minus HOPE VS HOPEFUL= :) plus HOPE

I am lost now.....can I disappear from your sight......??????

Be A Volunteer At Temple

I had promised my friend that I need to be a volunteer at a temple near KLCC there! I woke up around 5.30am because need to take lrt went there then my friend ,LIMIN just fetch me go there together. Quite excited and tired because of lacking of sleeping and resting yesterday~~~HELP!!!!This is the 1st time i had attended "Respecting Elderly Day".Many old folks came with delight mood,while I felt sleepy during my duty time!!!AIKZ......But afterwards we got many time to rest while LIMIN and other friend PEIYIN still busying with their duty!!!I am alone again when having the lunch but the food was so delicious (cz i was so hungry already)...hihi......there are many performances in the main hall but I seldom take the photo of it because so embarassed to do that,hihi....:)when i reached home almost 5pm,felt tired and moody because my dear had told me a bad new that he would go back on this THURSDAY,I am so upset,really so hesitating to leave him again~~DEAR,can you stay here for longer....even i knew that is impossible.......
I will upload the pic later.....hihi....cz now too late liao....wan sleep liao....

Tired in believing my friend

My friend,

也许相信你是一件大错特错的选择，
可是我每次都把每一个“也许”变成“不可能”。
因为我曾经希望你会是我最特别的朋友。
曾经为这段友情划上很多隐隐作痛的问号（？），
也尝试着为这些问号画上止痛的句号（。），
多希望能为这段友情画上没有止境的省略号（......)。

Siow ee, I am so tired in believing him.......
My friend,can u disappear from my sight.......
My dear,Sheong Ken, can u give me a hug , just a warm hug
that can relieve my pain.................................

MY SMILE JUST BE A DISGUISE FOR MY SADNESS

Nothing is impossible because everything is possible.This time i feel apathetic so much, my heart freeze in cold , cant smile anymore.I want to seek the genuine happiness,but someone who just around me is so far away from me suddenly now!!!!!!!!I wonder why????Its so difficult to greet with someone , even a smile~~I just want 2 ask for a smile from him only~~CAN I???

Today, my tears are always rolling in my eyes,I keep telling myself that I need to be more strong as I had promised my dear.Therefore,I wont cry so easy !!! I engage that this is the last time I cry because of him!!!!!!

By the way,I would like to apologise to SIOW EE because this is my fault of posing her feel guilty ,I never blame and condemn anyone for any fault~~~There is no utilization between friends,just keep giving and never ask for any reward from friends.Sincerely,sorry to SIOW EE :(

Why everyone wont mind about the trivial matter? I do mind every matter what u all had done for me even 1 word.....

I CAME WITH LITTLE HOPE , BUT WALKED AWAY BELIEVING IN MIRACLES