SWIMMING...:(

After swimming...HAIZZ...:(

The tranquil scene from her balcony

My aunt new home....so clean o...the floor is so smooth until I almost fall down

Before I go swim....I look like so fat lo....isnt???

SWIM SWIM SWIM.....swim...my swimming is so suck already.....HAIZ.....I am so weak and so lazy to practise lo....so today is the 1st time I start swimming again since I had start engaging my F6 hectic school life.....Aikz.....Suddenly I like got the phobia of the water o...OMG.....but so fast can get used to it already .....WHO CAN BRACE ME UP TO ENHANCE MY PROFICIENCY IN SWIMMING????

HAPPY MIDWINTER

I am wearing the T-shirt which was given by my dear~~

My cousin and my sister

The snow man in the middle of the snow balls

MY SISTER

MY COUSIN

My cousin 's snow man........

The colourful tang yuen in the pot

The cooked tang yuen in the red bowl

My ahzai is eating the tang yuen now

HAPPY MIDWINTER to my dearest family , my friends , and also all of my relatives.This feast is so vital and representative for the all Chinese.....so my family also made the 'tang yuen' by ourselves....we 3 siblings simply made it because my aunt just bought a little of flour .....but got 3 different colours....pink, green , and also yellow and white too....:P....should be in blithe and grateful mood ...:)

MY PASS .....:)

Recently my apartment (I dunno how 2 describe actually) start using the PASS to open the gate...AIKZ...really so mafan lo......no choice....YESTERDAY is the 1st time I used that PASS ....Just hope that this safety measure can be worked at all time....

The fruit sacrifice that WE 3 ( JIN VOON , JIA HENG , AND ME ) accumulate 1.....

This snack sacrifice ...haiz.....we 3 simply make .....dunno like what....cz is our 1st time ma.....XD

SEE.......how tired I am......and so difficult to take this photo lo.....paiseh leh....

JIA HENG.....the tallest guy among us....go eat herbal egg and the desserts...THANKS 4 BELANJA me a.....

HAHA......thz 4 looking here when I was taking this photo without letting him know....

JIN VOON seem so cheerful and delight today hor......isnt because of the guy beside you????

JIAN QIANG and RONG KANG (no need cover your face edi la........)

RONG KANG was introducing someone else beside him...hihi
WHOSE HAND A?????........is...........
......KE XIN who was laughing...haha
Everybody was so happy o....:)
HOPE YOU CAN RECOVER ASAP.......GOD WILL BLESS YOU......:)
Today go to PANDAN INDAH again , my BUDDHA SOCIETY (not mine actually, is the place i always go) to attend 三时系念 again...hihi....this events is always been organised....dont ask me why ya.....I just go there 2 contribute my help as a volunteer....hihi...but I am always so tired when being volunteer no matter where and when...haiz....so not respect lo...no choice.....Just SINCERELY APOLOGIZE to whoever I had done wrong to.....
But I was so blithe when we all ( all UUM volunteer ) can be together again.....:)
Quite less picture that I can capture because there is no chance 4 me to do like that somemore I need 2 respect this SOLEMN place o.....

Need to SUBMIT TO MY FATE...:(

Wont be updated 4 these 2 weeks because I will be going to KEDAH tomorrow to be the volunteer o......so just wish myself that will be lucky and hopeful days 4 me in these 2 weeks ...:)

I am very fed up with the arrangement of the volunteer duty o........:( 1st time I am being treated like that.....no choice....need to submit 2 my fate...:(

RUSH RUSH RUSH

SIOW EE 's turn
The dress is not belong to me finally...:(
This is the day that packed with a lot of plans....hmm.....but very rush to carry out these plans...AIKZ.....Go tuition at 9.30am in the morning until 12.30pm in the afternoon.....after that , SIOW EE and I go back my home 1st because I need 2 make sure that my brother and sister are able 2 settle their lunch ......then I need 2 rush to saloon with Siow ee without having our lunch.....HUNGRY...:(...just eat some bread in the car while i driving.We had waited 4 1 hour ......chat with siow ee until I want 2 sleep liao.....Finally is our turn liao....faster cut lo then rushed to JUSCO 2 buy something .We two walk there and here also need 2 hours .....not really people mountain people sea as yesterday.I had tried 1 dress but didn't buy it finally because its cutting is not standard ( may be I am quite demanding )...xD ......It is just a simple dress but look like so cheerful and bright....but may be it is not belong to me...I need to submit to my fate...no choice...:)...On the way back home, my aunt give me an emergency call that need 2 fetch my sister go TAMAN MIDAH 2 take her school stuff ....OMG.....need 2 rush back then receive her call again that may be not today so no need go then...YOR....quite frustrating lo.....but no choice....she is my aunt what????but i also need to fetch Siow ee back home...OMG....TRAFFIC JAM....hate it....Later need 2 fetch my brother back......tired of driving today.....Today go wherever also need to RUSH RUSH RUSH....so hesitate 2 leave both of my BROTHERS.....we didn't play basketball together in this holiday o....:(

A Weary Day

In the bus at 3.00am...cant see anything.
The place that we had our breakfast
See the sea is so wide and beautiful...how I wish I can have a nice day on the ship.

This is the ship that we want to take
In the ship so cold o.....

The temple is so solemn even its small.
The sacrifices

The entrance of the ship
In the bus...go back to KL lo.....sleepy...HoH
The PERAK night scene
Today I accompany my grandmum go to PULAU PANGKOR attend an BUDDHA event---三时系念.WOW.....its so exhausting o.....because I need wake up at 2.00am in the morning and go somewhere to take bus then need go to the port to take ship again.....HOH!!!~@~sleepy o....We depart from KL around 3am by bus....I barely sleep in the bus because the air-conditioner is too cold ,make me freeze in cold and even trembling also....OMG....tired o...later need to pray for the whole day...I sure will fall asleep later....:(......after undergoing the 3hrs++ journey(actually quite excruciating lo)we had reached PERAK ultimately, my hometown also.We go somewhere to have our breakfast but I don't have any appetite to eat because just now too cold already ...AIKS...then my grandmum ask me to eat something 1st....ok lo...eat something lo in case later nothing to eat.After that, we go to take ship lo...YO!!!quite exciting because that's a long time i didn't take a ride on ship...hihi....but the journey just take us 20 mins only.....I can become the ICEMAN already because also very cold in the ship......MY GOD!!!!trembling again...
Once we reached the temple,the event had started lo...faster take a seat then start praying lo.....At first my eyes almost close when praying.....so not respect...Aiks...but i really cant control.....Fortunately, I am energetic until the end of this event!!!!Its around 9pm when it is finished.Really sleepy and tired.Once I on the way back home ,I fall asleep so fast even the seat not so comfortable but my hand still holds the phone tightly because i am waiting for my dear 's call.He is also on the way back to SINGAPORE, MISS him so much...:(HAIZ..no choice, need to wait for him patiently and hopefully.....I will wait for him :)

I MISS YOU DEAR

MY DEAR...:)

THE DESSERT IS SO SWEET...:) I like KIWI but that is too little only 4 pieces...:(

Today my dear didnt keep his promise because he cant wake up so early...then i didnt know should I continue waiting for his response ?????but i keep telling myself that my dear sure will come and fetch me de because he always had delivered what he had said.And I BELIEVE HIM...but the time didnt allow me to do so.I cant wait for him anymore.I went tuition by myself.MOODY and GLOOMY on the way until the tuition center....:( THANKS my crony....SIOW EE....she had told me her stories..made me smile again....You will make me smile when I am not in good mood.SINCERELY THANKS SIOW EE!!!!I CAN SEE THE COLOURFUL RAINBOW THAT CHERISH MY HOPE...:)

After tuition , I had asked my dear come and fetch me because I want to see him again and again...:( I kept quiet along the way going to JUSCO.dont know why????but I know I still care about him...I am not ANGRY with him but just hate that cant wait until get his response...:(

We went to KIM GARY to have our lunch...i forgot to take picture of the main dish ....hihi:) I had a quite good chat with my dear .After this , we went to find the chocolate but cant find....yor...:( NVM....I believe that i sure can find it one day as long as i want it for my DEAR!!!

Tomorrow he need to go back SINGAPORE....i cried again...:( really so hesitant to leave him again....I should learn how to let you go sometime , DEAR.....nothing much to tell you DEAR but just only 4 words for you from my deepest heart......

I LOVE YOU ,DEAR!!!!!!:)

NOT THE 1ST TIME I FELT THAT I M DISTRACTED!!!!!!!!!

MY SMILE IS JUST A DISGUISE FOR MY SADNESS....ISN'T?????

Yesterday and today ..........:(...I felt hopeless .....where is my hope????

This is not the 1st time I felt distracted from them....may be is me think too much...but i also hope that is me think too much.....:( ULTIMATELY, I felt alone alone and alone.......:(walk along the road .....my mind is blank because i felt alone and empty......dunno why i will scare of being alone and since when?????may be i am too care about of you all????NO!!!NO!!!NO!!!!IS me should not be together with them at first....!!!!!!!!I cherish the hope that i can be more close with them anytime,but......will you all?????

An Exhausted and Hectic day without Resting(3/10/09)

Three round activities will be carried out consecutively the whole day~~finally i am so tired until i can fall asleep when sat on ZILIANG 's house sofa.Not only tired physically but also mentally~~extremely exhausted today!!SORRY my dear ,didnt accompany you at ZILIANG 's house.
1st round of engaging in the school until 12am plus plus~~2nd round of going to account tuition until 5pm~~OH MY GOD!!!how i can hold on until 10pm tonight for the 3rd round of tuition~~Wuuuuuu...:(HAIZ,my health was collapsed ultimately~~how i wish i have a whole day of sleeping now~~but tomorrow i still need go to be a volunteer!!!!
Anyway,I had experienced something new,HAHA!!!actually nothing special,just sitting RYAN's Honda car but never felt exciting or panic~~because my dear drove his car to fetch me go ZILIANG 's house 1st,then RYAN just drove me go to tuition together!!HIHI~~during the journey going back ZILIANG's house,we had met the traffic police.so nervous o.o Actually I felt nothing because I slept in the car but heard RYAN keep saying :"中了!中了!this time真的中了!"I felt curious about these words then awake and saw what had happened actually???i saw 2 traffic police in front of us already..OMG!I didnt wear the safety belt somemore he broke the rule by cutting the double line in front of the police.Fortunately,the police keep looking at RYAN only,so i seized the chance to wear the safety belt,RYAN just stunned there and aghast at them.We pretend like nothing and just pass by them!!!huuu.....:P nothing happen.YEAH!!!so lucky!!!sincerely thanks for RYAN's lifting~~and sorry my DEAR ~~always show you a sollow face ,I will try to smile more nest time~~~:)

Am I too stupid or too selfish~~????This time I am in the cleft stick ~~But i will insist on being loyal and faithful to my DEAR,I just want to tell my dear that i sure can overcome the delusion~~please give me some time,i wont give up while you cant give up me too.....I still need you at this crucially important moment...I am elapse and lost now but I will feel excruciating and despair when you are really leave me alone:(What can I do for you now?????I don't know how to face you next time????can just let it be nature???I know that is cant because your hurt wont be cured so easy and I just hope that I can heal your wound in your heart~~I felt your purest of pain these days.........i am not dare to ask for your forgiveness and not dare to ask you to wait for me again....because I know you are tired already.SORRY even this word didn't bring any meaning to you again,but I need to say to you again and again....No matter how is the condition finally,I want to tell you that I still need you to be with me and walk along with me...my DEAR,CAN YOU????:(

A hopeless day...:(

I dont like my hopeful day become a hopeless day. I am a pessimistic girl because I always feel despair in my hopeful day~~But i always cherish the hope in my hopeless day even the hope is less.I must become more tough and strong to overcome my hopeless day :)
I will always anticipate my hopeful day in order to reserve my little hope for hopeless day.Just from my deepest of my heart,A Hopeful Day remains a hopeful day for me while A Hopeless Day remains a hopeless day which will always leave me many lingering memories..>:(
The best moment is during my hopeless day is going to be my hopeful day!!!!!!!

HOPELESS =:( minus HOPE VS HOPEFUL= :) plus HOPE

I am lost now.....can I disappear from your sight......??????

Be A Volunteer At Temple

I had promised my friend that I need to be a volunteer at a temple near KLCC there! I woke up around 5.30am because need to take lrt went there then my friend ,LIMIN just fetch me go there together. Quite excited and tired because of lacking of sleeping and resting yesterday~~~HELP!!!!This is the 1st time i had attended "Respecting Elderly Day".Many old folks came with delight mood,while I felt sleepy during my duty time!!!AIKZ......But afterwards we got many time to rest while LIMIN and other friend PEIYIN still busying with their duty!!!I am alone again when having the lunch but the food was so delicious (cz i was so hungry already)...hihi......there are many performances in the main hall but I seldom take the photo of it because so embarassed to do that,hihi....:)when i reached home almost 5pm,felt tired and moody because my dear had told me a bad new that he would go back on this THURSDAY,I am so upset,really so hesitating to leave him again~~DEAR,can you stay here for longer....even i knew that is impossible.......
I will upload the pic later.....hihi....cz now too late liao....wan sleep liao....

Tired in believing my friend

My friend,

也许相信你是一件大错特错的选择，
可是我每次都把每一个“也许”变成“不可能”。
因为我曾经希望你会是我最特别的朋友。
曾经为这段友情划上很多隐隐作痛的问号（？），
也尝试着为这些问号画上止痛的句号（。），
多希望能为这段友情画上没有止境的省略号（......)。

Siow ee, I am so tired in believing him.......
My friend,can u disappear from my sight.......
My dear,Sheong Ken, can u give me a hug , just a warm hug
that can relieve my pain.................................

MY SMILE JUST BE A DISGUISE FOR MY SADNESS

Nothing is impossible because everything is possible.This time i feel apathetic so much, my heart freeze in cold , cant smile anymore.I want to seek the genuine happiness,but someone who just around me is so far away from me suddenly now!!!!!!!!I wonder why????Its so difficult to greet with someone , even a smile~~I just want 2 ask for a smile from him only~~CAN I???

Today, my tears are always rolling in my eyes,I keep telling myself that I need to be more strong as I had promised my dear.Therefore,I wont cry so easy !!! I engage that this is the last time I cry because of him!!!!!!

By the way,I would like to apologise to SIOW EE because this is my fault of posing her feel guilty ,I never blame and condemn anyone for any fault~~~There is no utilization between friends,just keep giving and never ask for any reward from friends.Sincerely,sorry to SIOW EE :(

Why everyone wont mind about the trivial matter? I do mind every matter what u all had done for me even 1 word.....

I CAME WITH LITTLE HOPE , BUT WALKED AWAY BELIEVING IN MIRACLES

A Traumatic Day

I am utterly despair with what he had said today even he was not talk in front of me!!!!!!!:( This time i wont cry anymore instead of keeping quiet because nothing i can do currently!Although you had motivated me indirectly before,I will more mind about your critism....dont know why????
For now,I dont have adequate prerequisite to be success in our class, but I wont surrender so easy.I will remember what you had said today------"I am not equal to her but she is more than me !!!" Literally correct, I am not dare to deny this fact!!!!.....Anyway, I just dont want to bottle up my emotion again......so miserable....:( :( :( Every sarcastic word is so excruciating and had hurted me so deeply even you are not purposely!!!!!!!!!
My journey was pretty traumatic from day to day.....i just want to be an ordinary and happy student in COCHRANE......
Being a successful student in this class is only lingering memory for me

my cousin forgot 2 wear the sport shoes

see see......my aunt is on the stage now
dont look at me with the weird sight.i know my fringe was cutted too short edi.......

I accompany my aunt go to attend 'FOREVER SUCCESS DAY ' at Maluri.This is a formal but not too huge function.Therefore,i am also quite awkward to take photo,so just a little picture i had took.AIKZ!!not fun lo,really hope that SIOW EE can take photo with me on that time,AIKZ!!!!!!!!But anyway,at least got several photos...HIHI...:)