Am I too stupid or too selfish~~????This time I am in the cleft stick ~~But i will insist on being loyal and faithful to my DEAR,I just want to tell my dear that i sure can overcome the delusion~~please give me some time,i wont give up while you cant give up me too.....I still need you at this crucially important moment...I am elapse and lost now but I will feel excruciating and despair when you are really leave me alone:(What can I do for you now?????I don't know how to face you next time????can just let it be nature???I know that is cant because your hurt wont be cured so easy and I just hope that I can heal your wound in your heart~~I felt your purest of pain these days.........i am not dare to ask for your forgiveness and not dare to ask you to wait for me again....because I know you are tired already.SORRY even this word didn't bring any meaning to you again,but I need to say to you again and again....No matter how is the condition finally,I want to tell you that I still need you to be with me and walk along with me...my DEAR,CAN YOU????:(

A hopeless day...:(

I dont like my hopeful day become a hopeless day. I am a pessimistic girl because I always feel despair in my hopeful day~~But i always cherish the hope in my hopeless day even the hope is less.I must become more tough and strong to overcome my hopeless day :)
I will always anticipate my hopeful day in order to reserve my little hope for hopeless day.Just from my deepest of my heart,A Hopeful Day remains a hopeful day for me while A Hopeless Day remains a hopeless day which will always leave me many lingering memories..>:(
The best moment is during my hopeless day is going to be my hopeful day!!!!!!!

HOPELESS =:( minus HOPE VS HOPEFUL= :) plus HOPE

I am lost now.....can I disappear from your sight......??????

Be A Volunteer At Temple

I had promised my friend that I need to be a volunteer at a temple near KLCC there! I woke up around 5.30am because need to take lrt went there then my friend ,LIMIN just fetch me go there together. Quite excited and tired because of lacking of sleeping and resting yesterday~~~HELP!!!!This is the 1st time i had attended "Respecting Elderly Day".Many old folks came with delight mood,while I felt sleepy during my duty time!!!AIKZ......But afterwards we got many time to rest while LIMIN and other friend PEIYIN still busying with their duty!!!I am alone again when having the lunch but the food was so delicious (cz i was so hungry already)...hihi......there are many performances in the main hall but I seldom take the photo of it because so embarassed to do that,hihi....:)when i reached home almost 5pm,felt tired and moody because my dear had told me a bad new that he would go back on this THURSDAY,I am so upset,really so hesitating to leave him again~~DEAR,can you stay here for longer....even i knew that is impossible.......
I will upload the pic later.....hihi....cz now too late liao....wan sleep liao....

Tired in believing my friend

My friend,

也许相信你是一件大错特错的选择，
可是我每次都把每一个“也许”变成“不可能”。
因为我曾经希望你会是我最特别的朋友。
曾经为这段友情划上很多隐隐作痛的问号（？），
也尝试着为这些问号画上止痛的句号（。），
多希望能为这段友情画上没有止境的省略号（......)。

Siow ee, I am so tired in believing him.......
My friend,can u disappear from my sight.......
My dear,Sheong Ken, can u give me a hug , just a warm hug
that can relieve my pain.................................

MY SMILE JUST BE A DISGUISE FOR MY SADNESS

Nothing is impossible because everything is possible.This time i feel apathetic so much, my heart freeze in cold , cant smile anymore.I want to seek the genuine happiness,but someone who just around me is so far away from me suddenly now!!!!!!!!I wonder why????Its so difficult to greet with someone , even a smile~~I just want 2 ask for a smile from him only~~CAN I???

Today, my tears are always rolling in my eyes,I keep telling myself that I need to be more strong as I had promised my dear.Therefore,I wont cry so easy !!! I engage that this is the last time I cry because of him!!!!!!

By the way,I would like to apologise to SIOW EE because this is my fault of posing her feel guilty ,I never blame and condemn anyone for any fault~~~There is no utilization between friends,just keep giving and never ask for any reward from friends.Sincerely,sorry to SIOW EE :(

Why everyone wont mind about the trivial matter? I do mind every matter what u all had done for me even 1 word.....

I CAME WITH LITTLE HOPE , BUT WALKED AWAY BELIEVING IN MIRACLES

A Traumatic Day

I am utterly despair with what he had said today even he was not talk in front of me!!!!!!!:( This time i wont cry anymore instead of keeping quiet because nothing i can do currently!Although you had motivated me indirectly before,I will more mind about your critism....dont know why????
For now,I dont have adequate prerequisite to be success in our class, but I wont surrender so easy.I will remember what you had said today------"I am not equal to her but she is more than me !!!" Literally correct, I am not dare to deny this fact!!!!.....Anyway, I just dont want to bottle up my emotion again......so miserable....:( :( :( Every sarcastic word is so excruciating and had hurted me so deeply even you are not purposely!!!!!!!!!
My journey was pretty traumatic from day to day.....i just want to be an ordinary and happy student in COCHRANE......
Being a successful student in this class is only lingering memory for me